To my daughter, from my heart -
I have so many questions,
but there seem to be so few answers.
I want to know what's happening,
I want to know what's coming next.
Do you know how much you are loved?
Do you know that every worried looked,
every second I hesitate, it's because I love you?
Do you know watching you hurt, is like falling down a flight of stairs,
over and over again?
I have so many questions.
What is going on?
Are you sick?
Who do I call?
Should this be happening?
My biggest question - Why?
Why must you fight these battles?
Why must you walk this road?
I know there is no answer,
I know it's not my fault.
But, that doesn't stop me from asking every day, ever hour -
Amanda has pledged to never give up asking why, even if there is never an answer. By asking, she is hoping to find better treatments.